What they don't tell you

    The hardest pill to swallow, that's when you look at yourself in the mirror and have to admit you don't control the person you see anymore. I can't remember the exact moment it all changed, when it went from fun to habit. What I do remember is that it happens, more often than not.

   A normal day went from playing with my son to watching him grow up from a distance even while living in the same home. Everything became distant... I can remember the night that started it all. My 21'st birthday party, it was the night that changed everything. I will begin telling that story as time goes on.

   As for now though I would say I have everything under control, I finally feel like myself again and have gained my mental clarity. What don't they tell you? They don't tell you that you're going to lose yourself, that everything will eventually revolve around your next drink...